Engraved on my mind
with letters in bold
and in some dark maroon gore
are the betrayals that left me aghast
a long while ago.
More I try to erase the unforgiving memories the inscribe becomes
more vivid
reminiscing the treacheries
from the distant past
The helpless state of a muddled mind
Copyright © Shantanu Baruah
Confab With Me 
Beautifully written on how difficult it can be to erase the memories of unforgivable people or issues of the past. I have found when the issues are repeated over again it is because I have not been looking at it properly I keep missing import parts of it. I now always ask why again and what have I missed and help me to see and understand more so I can finally close and release this repetitive issue. It is the mind which regurgitates the pain but the soul which reintroduces the memory when we are strong enough to face the reality of it.
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You said it so beautifully. Such a profound thought. Thanks for sharing your experience
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Your welcome. I only hope to help others
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It will sure be 😊
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I agree, you have provided a very insightful and thoughtful analysis as well as application/reflection. We often try to “move on” quickly, failing to fully take advantage of the opportunity to learn and grow. It is always a balance… Knowing our own limits and boundaries as well as being open to pushing ourselves as is healthy.
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Thanks for adding to the thread. You said it well
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Thank you for you beautiful reply.
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Forgiving and forgetting the past is the difficult battle yet to be won by the human mind. You portrayed it well, Shantanu.
My fav line is “The helpless state of a muddled mind”.
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Thank you so much, Megha. I like that like too😊
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Cool.Beautiful minds think alike..haha.Your posts showed up first on my reader today.
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Thanks Megha 😊
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Beautiful. And so very true. Thank you for your lovely poetry.
Sometimes it’s a terrible thing when the inscribe becomes more vivid. It’s important to learn and move forward in life helping others. Our trials can become our testimony.
But when the past becomes so vivid it can be very scary indeed. Speaking from someone who suffers from PTSD. I’ve lived a very traumatic life, and would love to put an end to the reminiscing, lol.
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Thank you such wonderful words. Your thought enhanced my poetry. Yes, sometimes it is so hard to let go the past and comes and haunts us. I do hope you get peace and escape from your past. Love 😊
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I’ve been doing remarkably well with that for the last 5 years, but had an incident which triggered a PTSD attack not to long ago. But, I’m doing much better now. I appreciate your kindness.
Your words touched me. Thank you so much.
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I am glad to learn you are doing great. 🌼for a beautiful life ahead 😊
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Amen. 🌷
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🌸🤗
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I really enjoyed this! Brought up questions and ideas! Loved the line – “reminiscing the treacheries”! Sometimes they aren’t erased on purpose???
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Thanks so much for leaving behind always beautiful comments. Much appreciate it
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Reblogged this on The Reluctant Poet.
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Thank you for the reblog
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